Nolan and Dan are up playing Xbox, and as great as Netflix movies are most of the ones on the instant play are pretty lame, after a couple of them I'm burnt out. So I decided I'd listen to some Joshua Radin and write about my Sunday. We've been in this ward almost a year now, sadly I am finally getting to know people. The transition from singles ward to the family ward has been tough for me. Probably because I had such a great singles ward and was so involved in it. It's hard to get involved when your calling is Visiting Teaching Supervisor and is only done at the end of each month. We are trying to enjoy the ward and not sneak off to St.David or Willcox on the weekends.
When we moved into the ward we bore our testimony's the first fast sunday we were there. I mentioned I was from St.David and that my maiden name was Jones. Well too my surprise a woman got up to bare hers a few people after me and said "Sister Hatch is your mother Mary Higginbotham?" I was really embarrassed and just shook my head yes while every head turned at us. Even Nolan was red! Anyways turns out she is married to a guy that was married to Grandpa Higginbothams sister Shirley I believe who died of cancer in her 30's I think. Don't quote me on that. We haven't really talked to her since. Infact she introduced herself to me like 2 months later acting like we had never met. Strange. But she came up to me today and said, "Hello Mary." I just smiled and said hello. Then she asked me my first name.
That conversation got me thinking. So here are my Sunday Thoughts of the day........ Things in our life happen for a reason. And for the time being certain trials or whatever it may be define us. We can't help it they just do. As life goes on though, the things that define us should change. The ones that did in the past should help us grow but should be in the past. Life changes and we move on. I am very thankful for a husband who is very patient with his emotional wife. We have been married for 9 months now and it has been wonderful. I am finding out a lot about myself. The funny thing is I thought I had figured Vanessa out in Idaho. I think I only figured out how to survive being single. Being married is a whole different story. Different yet more wonderful. I would never change a single thing!
I had a melt down the other day for no good reason. Poor Nolan had no idea how to react. It last 3 days actually and finally Nolan cornered me in the kitchen telling me I had to talk. Which resulted in me washing dishes and marinating steak and everything else you can think of instead of talking until I just lost it. We sat and talked everything through and I am so thankful for that. So at church when the lady called me Mary it made me think. It made me think of where I am today. Who I am for that matter. Nobody sees me as Vanessa Jones. Infact no one here knows anything about me. I am Vanessa Hatch. There are so many possibilities for Nolan and I. Dwelling on the past and things that have happened is just holding us back. Its time to learn and grow from them and let something else define me. So that is my goal. So let go of the crazy highschool girl who put her Step mom and father through hell and back(which I am truly sorry for) and turn into a wife and someday (not anytime soon) a mother. Nolan and I have some goals to achieve this. It all starts with daily scripture study and prayer. Not just individually but as a couple. We also want to get out of debt by august so if he starts school he wont have to work and we can possibly think of a family.
I think writing down goals is important to accomplishing them. So sorry to all of you who think this post was too personal or too much information or whatever it may be. But I hate hand writing and I figured that knowing someone read it will give me the encouragement to keep my goals and to become a better person.
Here are some recent pictures so this post wasn't just a boring ramble! This first picture is one I found of our trip to Vegas with Bridget so she could see Travis about a year ago. I thought it was sweet. The second one is from Christmas when Nolan and His dad roped. And the last is us Christmas Eve. Thanks for reading this!
