April is a fun month! I love love Easter! I have been thinking of this time last year and how crazy it was with Rachel and Scott getting married and then our wedding! It was crazy!!! My mother in law would text me almost daily reminding me to Keep on Keeping on! I love that saying. Thank heavans we made it through last april. Nolan and I hit our 1 year anniversary in about 2 weeks. It is crazy that it has already been a year. It has been one crazy year but the best year of my life so far. All the job moving and apartment moving and the car problems and everything have been worth everything! We are finally in a bigger apartment and 2 secure jobs. It feels good. I still am not the biggest fan of Tucson but have met some friends here and am liking my ward a lot better. So I guess tucson isnt that bad after all.
I have had a lot on my mind lately. And before I start writing it all down just know I am not pregnant and we are not trying lol just fyi!! ha ha! But babies have been on my mind. We have finally discussed when maybe we will start trying. All of my friends seem to have a kid or 2 so I have started preparing nolan! You know how you have to prepare the husband more then the woman has to prepare ha ha! Anyways I woke up this morning thinking of kids. And I am totally freaked out. To the point of tears. Really I just dont know how new moms do it not knowing anything about raising kids. I am the worst with new borns. When I would baby sit Tenley I would hold her constantly and never set her down cause I like to be able to feel her heart beat. Is that weird? But then I realized I am not real sure what a mother daughter relationship should really be like. I mean I have my stand in moms and all but not that relationship like i see some people have. In fact I dont know if I would know how to even have a relationship like that. I am sure it would just come right? I dont know. BUT IT FREAKS ME OUT!! Anyways those are my thoughts. Kids scare me and being a mom scares me more! lol Any advice sisters or anyone else?
Life is great though! I got to see my dad Leah and Nat the other day at a softball game. I am glad that natalie plays in tucson sometimes so that I can see them. She is one athlete and I always love Leah's passion for the game! Nolans mom stayed the night the other day. It was sooo good to see her. She always just has a way of making us feel accomplished and loved. And she always has the best advice and insight. I am very lucky to have her! Life is great. Thanks for reading this. Here are some recent photos!
Dan and Lily enjoying the Suns game! I think Lily may be a Suns fan now!
Proof that I am still a psycho!
Nolan and i at the suns game! We had soooo much fun!
Steve NASH!!!
My buddy Lily and me!!
Lily took this while we were walking to the stadium and then she edited it! Love it!
In the car window getting to the game!!
nolan wasnt very happy when the suns started to lose they were winning the whole game then lost!
Driving to the game!
I am not sure when the was taken!
2 comments:
Haha. You should read my blog post about "Worries" about becoming a parent. It is seriously SCARY! I am SO scared. I am so afraid that I won't know how to have a close relationship with my kids either because I am really not that close to any of my family (not like a lot of families I see). Then there is all the technical stuff too, I have NO clue about any of that.
And don't ever feel rushed. I am 26 with my first. Shoot most of my friends are on their 3rd and 4th right now! But I am so glad I waited until I was ready, I am scared but I am also very excited and ready!
Love ya Ness! Keep on writing!
I'm glad you're enjoying married life and getting to like Tucson more. Sometimes it takes a while to get used to so many changes!
When babies are on your mind all the time, there's no looking back, ha ha! You'll figure the whole parenting thing out. And you will love that baby with all your heart! I worried about it not being natural to me...I always felt I wasn't as good w/ kids as some of my siblings and friends were. But I love being a mom, and have all the confidence in the world that you will too!
P.S. Love the proof that you're still a psycho! :) Love that about you!
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